
What with the Coronavirus and all this isolation, it’s given us all a lot of time to think about things. Some positive, some not so much.
I’m not a religious person per se, in that, I don’t subscribe to any particular theism. I guess the closest I would come is Pantheism. Even then, I have my own theories about it. In fact, I wrote my own Creation myth to go with it! (I’ll post that at some point in the future.) Or will I? Because the future doesn’t exist. Or, does it? Is everything predetermined… whoa! You’ve got me off track.
Phew, that was close.
We could’ve been here for hours discussing that particular conundrum.
What I do think about a lot is death. Don’t go! I don’t mean that in a depressing way. More of a philosophical one. What happens when we die? Is there an afterlife? Does such a thing as reincarnation exist?
What’s that got to do with Covid-19?
Well, a lot of people have died from it. And nature seems to be thriving since we’ve isolated ourselves from huge swathes of it. So, what is the point of us? Is there one? Are human beings as insignificant as a dandelion? (Or, significant, if you’re a dandelion.)
I dunno. I don’t have the answers.
What I do know is that human beings are made of energy. We can’t live without it. That’s not my opinion, it’s a scientific fact. Another scientific fact is that energy can never be created nor destroyed. The atoms that created you and I came from the Big Bang. And they will not go anywhere, but back into the universe. That means, the atoms that make up you and I have been pottering about the universe for the past 13.8 billion years! God knows what mine have been up to. It can’t have been good.
Of course, that doesn’t mean that the energy that keeps you and me alive maintains its sentience once it leaves our bodies. But it did make me think of a poem.
It’s one I wrote a while ago and came to mind because of what’s going on in the world. How quickly and easily life can be arbitarily snuffed out whilst other life thrives. Perhaps the question is not, does human life have purpose? But, doesn’t all life have purpose?

Now, I am not.
By David Milligan-Croft
I am an electron.
I am an atom.
Now, I am not an atom.
I am a star.
I am a white dwarf.
I am primordial gloop.
Now, I am not.
Now, I am molten lava,
Coursing through the juvenile earth.
Now, I am not.
I am a rock.
Marble, to be specific.
From the cliffs of Massa and Carrara.
Now, I am not a rock.
I am an amoeba.
Now, I am two amoeba.
I am sky.
I am cerulean-blue sky.
I am cloud – I am rain – I am river.
I am
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r
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l
l,
I am ocean.
I am vapour.
I am a droplet of dew on a monkey puzzle tree.
Now, I am not a droplet of dew on a monkey puzzle tree.
I am a puzzled snow monkey in a hot thermal spring.
I am a tiger.
I – am – a – tiger.
Waiting.
Watching.
Padding.
Creeping, slowly through the long grass.
I see you with your spear.
I. Am. Tiger.
Now, I am not.
I am a slave.
Skin flaking from my red-raw back
Like cherry blossom petals.
Now, I am free.
I think I am a Greek.
Therefore, I am not a Greek.
I am a hoplite.
My dory has shivered,
My hoplon is buckling.
Now, I am not.
I am a foetus.
I hear my mother’s muffled weeping
From somewhere close by.
Now, I am not a foetus.
I am the darkness
That envelops you.
I am a judas.
All that have gone before
And all that will come.
Now, I am a magician.
Now, I am not a magician.
Ta-daaaah!
Now, I’m a daddy!
I cradle your delicate life in my trembling palms.
One day, I will be your father no more,
But, for now,
I am.